HVGD

Last week I was at work and I started complaining about the bids being unrealistic for us in the shop to meet. Each bid has a spec sheet and each step of the work is spelled out with a certain amount of minutes applied. So we try to beat those times but still do a good job. The other worker and I were discussing this problem and I must admit, I had some opinions. Shortly after my soap box speech, I felt convicted of complaining. I was reminded of reading Exodus and the children of Israel complaining to Moses that they could have thirsted to death in Egypt instead of the wilderness! It's amazing that after all they saw, they could say that. But here I was, after all He has done for me, looking at things naturally and losing my faith over such a small matter. I immediately repented and gave back the reins to Him and felt peace again. An hour or so later the shop manager asked me to come to the office. There was an antique desk that had just come in that some movers had dropped and he wanted my estimate on time frame. Not only did he listen, he added time to my times! As I went to eat my lunch I realized that God was already taking care of the problem and I just needed to seek first the kingdom and leave the rest to Him. EVEN MY PAY RATE! (Which is based on performance with the bid times.) That is not easy, but it's funny how much peace I get when I let Him be in control, and still I harden my heart and take over. Later that week I was praying for Shammah and the term graft vs host disease came to mind. Then I thought, "That's my problem! I'm suffering from host vs graft disease." Now, from what I could remember from science in grade school, the host carried other forms of life and they formed a symbiotic relationship. My problem was that I was fighting the Life that Christ was offering me to have.

I got my hair cut by someone David met, and while I was in the chair, I briefly shared about moving to CA. He commented on how it must've taken alot of faith to make a move like that. I thought about it later and realized it wasn't hard at all really. I had the backing of the church, people I talked to were supportive, and God had provided the funds in such a way that it was obvious that He was wanting me to go. So, I moved across the country and He continued to make it obvious that we were in His will. Where faith really has to come in, is at work when it doesn't look like I'll make much money for a while. Even today I was told the rest of the week looks like I might have some time off because no work has come in for two days. Thankfully the last lesson was still fresh and I actually am looking forward to what God is going to do. Actually, some time off would allow me to get caught up on my Bible reading with Shammah. So, now I just have to walk in that faith when I do go home early, but it's exciting. It makes for great testimonies and more time to seek the Kingdom.